I AM VERY PROUD TO SAY I AM very sure I have kicked the ganja habit for good and forever. I dont need it to feel high. And I see it as disgusting, a word that helps me stay away from it all together. So happy so free, I dont drink, I dont smoke. other than DMT every now and again lmao :)! get on my LEVEL GET ON IT ! haha YOUuuuuUUUu WONT haha ;D i love it, usually the you wont part is said in a very deep voice as a thug gangsta*s accent as to entice and provoke :) I use to do it all the time in highschool to my friends.. YOUUuuuUUuuu WONT!!! haha
in my opinion the best paramahansa is one in enamored by god and all that is, and still works within the world for the benefit of all beings, that old school of just dropping out and falling into samadhi and leaving everyone in the dark and silence is not my style. As it will not be my style. I have more to go and learn. And more processes. I ve tasted the nectar, and will stay in service, and will endure what it takes to manifest the new humanity. However long it will take. I know I am secure no matter what happens. But toally just blissing out and leaving one alone is not what I am here to do. As I ve done those lifetimes already, and have waited for this one, to be active.
the concept of paratma and the reality of the veil of ignorance over most people has got me really hurting.
and philosophically, theoretically, and spiritually confused..I am not sure now what the difference of
the soul of mine and the soul of another. reincarnation and past and future lives as well has got me utterly confused.
its like that point when you have to let go and give up everything you thought you knew to be right and reexamine all of your belief systems and the definition of what it means to be you! who am I?? and God is an answer that comes up frequently. i know everyone else is also God experiencing itself. the creative source of all that which is ever was and ever will be. is who I really am.
thats me. I am that. Aham Brahmasmi Tat Tvam Asi. but the idea of soul groups animal soul groups and old souls and new souls. and then we are all being one. and I am all and all is me. and its very hurting to me. because now I am confused. about how to approach everyone elses belief systems in a balanced manner. trying to integrate. but at the same time not be stepped on, but still claim my power with integrity.
the word for me to meditate on is BALANCE. what is BALANCE. what does that mean in the context of my whole being?!!??!!! in terms of situations that may arise that negative unfavorable and retarded ignorance from others. knowing that everything is okay and just the way it needs to be. and they we are NOT on the same level.
so much more.
i write some more here.
sigh. anyways. I am God You are also God. but I wont take any shit from the God which has not yet known themselves and fully aligned themselves to the extent which I have for this self.
question: I am an old soul, I am I really an avatar, I am I really an Ascended Master reincarnated, if I am totality If I am everything. when I die… I could very well choose to be any ignorance darkened negative good bad ugly weird entity that I wish. because I am connected with everyone I am the whole and the part. you are me and I am you. there is no difference, but the ego personality the humanity. the way we think with our ego/mind complex which has its PROGRAMMINGS FROM RELIGIONS SOCIETY The ethers…and this is where it gets weird..their past life aspects..so fucking confusing. its both this and that.. I am not sure what to solidly believe any more or how to go about helping people in regards to those details. I would like to so I will contemplate it even more, and listen and ask my guides angels god and the beings of service to help this one. help others which is really just helping myself. all of this in me must be looked at.
applied wisdom you can literally call me maharsihi.. a rishi is one who sees.. a maha rishi is one who acts ON WHAT he sees..action orientated yogi. one foot in totality the other in wordly duties. pure balance in the making
I am feeeeeling terrfic FILLEED WITH SO MUCH LOVE ENERGY! vitalness wisdome power, strength vision !
so happy going forward. not even tired all night all morning! all day! !! !
what to do what toooo dooo….. today has been quite productive. and since I ve been working on upgrading my dna and stuf… I cant sleep lol not mention my mata tea.. i just had and that i woke up around 12 ish today lolol the body gots to have what it needs although i think i layed down around 7 am or so staying up the whole night… tonight!! I HOPE to stay up the whole night and morning onwards working and being productive. and getting shit done ect ect. so thats whee I am at now. meditating on what to do next going to do some journaling. <3
heres a phot i posted on akashic journeys facebook :) recently
words are just words…………..
trigger words. ; emotion mastery
asshole moves, dick moves, cunt, nigger, ect
just saying cause I was thinking about how would you go about conveying of being an asshole on facebook…lol and i instantly thought of..lol liking your own insult comment? your own ‘downgrading comment’ lolol
now i am thinking of milrepa and his master the translator. lol haha
he would poke fun at his disciple ALLL THE TIME HAHA lol
from Collectibles, by John Feodorov (Navajo):
“Collectibles” is an ongoing series of archival inkjet prints utilizing old photographs of family members combined with selected quotes from advertisements for “Indian Style” porcelain figurines and plates from The Bradford Exchange and similar companies. There is a wealth of bizarre advertising copy that finds itself into popular magazines and junk mail, feeding the population’s apparent desire for exotic, spiritual and sexy Native Americans who are continually accompanied by spirits of wolves or eagles.