you cant save everyone. save yourself first.
dont get overwhelmed, have faith in the world. something I am learning. just disconnected from facebook.
taking a large break.
"Enter ye in at the narrow gate: for wide is the gate, and broad is the way that leadeth to destruction, and many there are who go in thereat. How narrow is the gate, and strait is the way that leadeth to life: and few there are that find it!" ~ Matthew 7:13-14
i am willing to admit I am a total loser at times lol
I have too many super embarrassing moments that have been coming up in my memory and I just laugh at how ridiculous i have been and felt.
and I OWN IT! hahaha
It is a real pleasure to be here on Earth with everyone and everything the good bad the ugly all of it. I am here to embrace it all, with as much grace as I can allow. But one thing I must say; while I am here on Earth, I will not stand for nothing less than short of Paradise. if its not paradise or a paradise in progress; I will never ever be satisfied.
whatever the hell you want to call it Enlightenment and Romance. I am not giving up on it. Just taking a break from all the chaos. Sometimes I just want to retreat to a cave or a mountain monastery skateboard and make videos, and accept no one at all, and refer everyone to Ammaji or Ramana Maharshi for guidance and council. Making my gettaway plan, let things be as they may. I am water, and I will flow; and crash when necessary.
in other words people can be so weird sometimes.
All the wise words in history and from our star brothers have been spoken already; and is anyone listening has humanity changed yet? Have we evolved beyond our need for control and domination? Beyond the fear of total freedom and letting people be responsible to collaborate and express their beings totally? I dont feel it, I see glimers…and thats what I am holding dearly too. that these glimers expand expand and expand. and may God bless everyone. May God deliver us all. Cause today I am just relaxing; dropping all responsibilities. fuck google. fuck facebook. We just need to listen deeply to all the wisdom of the ages; and apply them with firm faith and determination free of fear of death failure and ridicule. this is how I feel. and what makes it fuunny. is I am just speaking to a facebook wall right now lol. anyways. Its not easy making videos and conveying all these words to people via youtube; as everyone one wants to be stimulated and entertained…and wants videos less than 5 minutes. So who is listening? lmao.
I am just going to be a shaman. fuck the drama. laters!
today while watching skateboarding videos of my heros Rodney Mullin Chris Haslem and others. From Almost skateboarding. I had alot of emotions pour over me. Tears of inspiration, and deeeep yearing and desire to make it happen. To set aside the other nonsense and just do it, and whatever it takes just do it. I have alot of dreams, I have alot of passions that I want to bring out, and the biggest one is to inspire others to be the best they can be, I am going to be come totally enlightened and empowered. fuck all the haters and those who never supported me in my quest for freedom and clairity. money and pride is such a strange weird thing. Thats not what I am about. glory to the psychics and teachers who could care less or give a rat’s ass about money. all glory to God, I know where I am going. I know what I want. I know what I am capable of and I will do what it takes to make it happen. I will levitate and also skateboard and create the new 5th generation of skateboarding, even humanity. I am admoi. Call me whatever.. crazy… whatever. I ve had so many people call me all sorts of names before, some of the most viles things JUST because I was open about my psychic abilties and my guides being able to communicate with me at will.
I am an avatar. I am not perfect, I ve been harsh and unkind at times. I think its time for me to let the responsiblity of provoking people to change is over. I’ve also let go of the bad habits of smoking, and I never drank. so theres that a straight edge skateboarder in the making. I use to skateboard with my cousins when I was in mexico visiting but never got into it, because I was never clear about what I wanted and why. NOW
I know. I know why I am getting into it, and the main reason is to inspire and to help awaken humanity even further and by doing this I ve have already separated myself from a large part of humanity and I dont really care anymore. I am not doing this for fame or publicity. but for the sake of the human race to grow up and to streach people’s conception of what is possible. And I will dedicate my whole entire life to make it happen. I dont know how long it will take to get to the point of levitating, and even mastering the art of levitating and flying at will, with out help from the elemental part of nature. But I am going to do lots of juicing , yoga, meditation, and claim my power and being and truth of being the one. being alone. all one. Being the brahaman, the atman. the adam kadmon, or whatever. I have nothing to fear or reason to hide my feelings and intentions, despite what people may think of me past present or future.
today tho, i feel really that a huge shift has taken place inside of me, and I am more than ever ready to put in the work and push the boundries as much as I can, using all the knowledge, wisdom, techniques and information that I have gleaned over the years working on social networking sites and doing my own personal research. I have so much more to unfurl. And I am sooo sooo soooooo ready to put my heart and soul into everything that I do. I have alot of vidoe Ideas to produce as well, and what a cool thing that in skateboarding video film production is a big part of that industry.
feeling quite happy, feeling quite determeined, feel incredibly greatful, feeling like I can do it, feeling like its time to move on to those passions I really do care about. Facebook fuck you, I ve spent so much time to up my numbers on my pages just to help others. and you just spoiled it all by monetizing everything, and making it harder and harder for people to actually network and see other peoples quality content. I am very angry, and very upset about that. Luckily I didnt put all my eggs in one basket, and I am not stupid and found other ways to promote my pages via groups and gained a good natural organic following that way.
anyways. I am really going to be focusing on many aspects of life these up and coming months and years, namely healing others and myself with the techniques I ve learned and also film making and skateboarding along with the up keep and refinement of my dna and psychic abilities.
And I realized this is it. I am going to do it and dedicate totally and fully to my dreams.
sincere thanks to all those who have been there for me, and most of thank you to my beloved mother and may all the fruits of my action be given to her and the glorious lord supreme of which I am doing this for. everything I do I lay before the feet of the almighty God, supreme source of all that is it totally reverence sincerity and deeeeeepest appreciative feelings. which English words cannot even come close to actually describing in truest form. all glory to God. All glory to God ! AND ALL GLORY to my angelic team force of friends family helpers, and masters and all the beings here helping me and guiding me along the way. I am no one and nothing without all of you. please may I do a good ob, my I do well. lord and protect me from my own ignorances and false hoods. sincere thanks and onwards and uP wards ;) :)
Phewwww who who whoo whooooooo haha so much work to do! I AM UP FOR THE CHALLENGE THO! I got this ! PEACE on earth by any means necessaryyyy! As long as I am here and alive on Earth I will not settle for anything less other than PARADISE ! Promise you can count on coming from me! I will die doing this work! So it is SO it will be! No stopping me now.
I also have to update my tumblr but whateves, I am on a roll going to put in alot of work on my facebook pages Akashic Journeys and Permaculture Pirates tonight listening to the amelie yann tiersan sound track realllyyy feeling it right now lets do this ! wahoo ! !! ! !
I AM VERY PROUD TO SAY I AM very sure I have kicked the ganja habit for good and forever. I dont need it to feel high. And I see it as disgusting, a word that helps me stay away from it all together. So happy so free, I dont drink, I dont smoke. other than DMT every now and again lmao :)! get on my LEVEL GET ON IT ! haha YOUuuuuUUUu WONT haha ;D i love it, usually the you wont part is said in a very deep voice as a thug gangsta*s accent as to entice and provoke :) I use to do it all the time in highschool to my friends.. YOUUuuuUUuuu WONT!!! haha
in my opinion the best paramahansa is one in enamored by god and all that is, and still works within the world for the benefit of all beings, that old school of just dropping out and falling into samadhi and leaving everyone in the dark and silence is not my style. As it will not be my style. I have more to go and learn. And more processes. I ve tasted the nectar, and will stay in service, and will endure what it takes to manifest the new humanity. However long it will take. I know I am secure no matter what happens. But toally just blissing out and leaving one alone is not what I am here to do. As I ve done those lifetimes already, and have waited for this one, to be active.